addiction or hobby?

i wonder if maybe i'm not normal.  ok, im pretty sure i'm not normal. whatever normal is...   

My boyfriend and i were reading through a quiz in one of those guy's magazines, about sex and women or something along those lines.  One question asked about masturbation and how often you do it.   It was a multiple choice answer, with things like "A. once a day  B. once a week  C. once a month"  etc...  i said to him "my answer isn't on here... many times a day".   and he laughed and said 'yeah, right'....  but i wasn't joking.    I'm surprised he didn't believe me, considering how horny i always am, how i am always trying to get in his pants, no matter where we are or what we are doing.  He knows i have a high sex drive, beyond any girl he's known before... but i guess the masturbation thing was too unreal for some reason.  

For starters...

i don't expect anyone to actually read this.  maybe someone will stumble upon it on the 'next blog' button, but i doubt it will catch the attention of anyone to actually stop on and read.   i'm writing, because i like to.   and writing in this fashion, is kind of like telling someone all those things in my head that are probably insane, or about all the things that i've done or have happened to me, without the worry of losing their respect or friendship, or heaven forbid.. my family finding out.

ok, 'friendship' sounded kinda funny, considering i have mainly acquaintances in my life... not very many real 'friends'.  its something i always wanted, but just never happened.  i've had temporary good friends, but none last the long haul.  some disappear, and some just seem to step back over time...drift apart i guess.   

i used to long for a good friend i could talk about sex to, especially.  a girl who actually loved sex the way that i do.  a girl who loved it, wanted it, and wasn't just saying she did to seem 'cool'.   that is the number one thing i've noticed in my 'friendships'... girls who 'claim' to love sex. or love to give blow jobs.  in reality, they don't.